Escape

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Lately, I’ve been trying to escape

Everyday I thought about running away

Get lost in a parade, all I do is complain

I was going to suffocate, all those feelings you evacuated 

Each day you create new ideas for me to love, ones I embrace

My mind was full of mistakes, I was so afraid

New memories you create, ones I won’t debate 

You helped my mind stay in shape

You’re a hero without a cape

I was asleep and now I’m awake

I wanted to escape but because of you I’ll stay 

Calm Atmosphere

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I’ve learned how to sink into calmness

Beyond the dark atmosphere

I’m enjoying the calm air, the calm energy

Sitting in a pose, palms facing up

The soft, perfect silence

Sweat pants, messy hair, and some lip balm

Music playing, high in thoughts, high in energy

I’m feeling calm

My concentration heightened, my sadness slowly dying

The world was still spinning, but at a comfortable speed

I’ve learned how to properly plant my seeds

But I had to be soaked in chaos first

When darkness attacks me, I shut it down with a harmonious wave

Baby Steps

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It’s never personal

It’s just complex

Your complexion is irresistible

But I must behave

Slowly graduating but proceeding in baby steps

I want to intertwine spirits but I still haven’t murdered my insecurities

I’ve executed an illustrious plan to feel like a beauty goddess

I love your face but this is more than just appearance

Rebel

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You’re now aware that you no longer chain me

You’re upset that you no longer get to control my gains

And now you claim that I’m a rebel

When really, I’m just on a different level

You’re stuck behind and I’m trying to win the life medal

You’re going around telling everyone I’m a rebel

Because I refuse to resemble your unconditional negative vibe

Which most times it’s hard to describe because it’s not a genuine vibe

But I’m a rebel because I don’t want to play with the devil

Eternal

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I’m not sure if you’ll love me eternal but please love me internal

Love me in the light and love me nocturnal

I need straight lines, please don’t make me go in circles

Whether you accept or deny this love referral, please be straight up, be verbal

Love me in the shadows and love me universal

Love me in Heaven and love me infernal

Tell me how you feel so I can write it in my journal

I’m not sure if you’ll love me eternal, but please love me internal and love me external

Soulful

I appreciate your ancient soul

you’re so soulful

you make me feel so joyful and hopeful

two feelings I thought I would never experience

I admire whoever brought you into existence

I’m so serious about this experience

when I see you, I don’t know how to act

so I act delirious

your eyes are so mysterious

your vibe is an art of brilliance

Hallucinations

Translucent hallucinations

this feels better than reality

she recognizes herself

but she prefers her animated self

in a perfect world where there is no pain, she feels no hurt

her heart feels no cold

in the real time she is slowly intoxicating herself

in her dream world she gets an increase of soul

no roughness

just sweet affirmations

no sad scenes

just sweet passion

when she opens her eyes

she feels betrayed by her sight

murdered hallucinations