Letting Go

Letting go I don’t know What it feels like My feelings I want to release in open mic Some many feelings bottled up I have a feeling In order to let go My silence I need to break I need to release all my aches I won’t flake anymore I get my pen and my journal, and I sit by the lake There I sit and I write about all my heartbreaks and all the snakes I write about the times I haven’t been awake, in a dark state All the birthday wishes and the birthday cakes Letting go of … Continue reading Letting Go

Paradise

Peace, serenity looking out for the enemy those who can’t agree to disagree because to them they’re always right if you don’t agree, they are putting up a fight like we don’t have freedom of speech my thoughts differ from yours my sanity I’m trying to preserve but sometimes I witness dark discoveries I struggle to find beauty I’m drowning in pain so, I’ve created an illusion looking for a sacred conclusion I’m reading vibrations not everyone wants to go to paradise but that’s a personal choice it’s not your choice to make if you want to go don’t try … Continue reading Paradise

Catastrophe

She was never in that much pain but she catastrophized her symptoms to make him stay she made him think she would feel betrayed she got tired of being slayed she decided she would become the slayer the roles switched and now she was the player his time she wanted to waste his actions she wanted to copy and paste so he could feel what it feels the real tears the feeling of not knowing how to deal how long it takes to heal the feeling is so unreal it can have you missing meals he used to call her … Continue reading Catastrophe

Terror

You think your microscopic lies would hurt I think you lie because it helps you cope but you’ve been losing hope I once thought you were dope but you keep tightening your own rope all you do is sit there and mope you act up and blame it on your horoscope delighted? more like I feel ignited my peace is about to catch flames you’re making all these silly claims I don’t even feel the same this is what we became played too many games living in your dreams felt like an error I lived in terror Continue reading Terror

Spell

You can hurt me tell me lies you can bruise me but you can never hate me there’s no reason I treated you right every season I tamed all your demons you think I triggered them truth is I controlled them once I was gone they grew do you not see I planted your seeds your focus was elsewhere so you didn’t see I built it you killed it you blamed me, always trying to frame me but we both know without me your flames are shame I tried to help you you withheld but somehow never forgot how to … Continue reading Spell

Hallucinations

Translucent hallucinations this feels better than reality she recognizes herself but she prefers her animated self in a perfect world where there is no pain, she feels no hurt her heart feels no cold in the real time she is slowly intoxicating herself in her dream world she gets an increase of soul no roughness just sweet affirmations no sad scenes just sweet passion when she opens her eyes she feels betrayed by her sight murdered hallucinations Continue reading Hallucinations

Loving Blindly

Sweet and sensual affirmations he would whisper in her ear to attract her to attract her soul despite his rebellious reason she low key fell for it humble dream, exquisite unreality the atmosphere trembled it was hard to breathe her presence she was losing to his selfish needs inexperienced in peace experienced in hell at first it was hard to tell judgment rapidly loses it’s ability when you fall in love unfortunate soul affecting victims those who love blindly feel the sword Continue reading Loving Blindly

Summer Evenings

Summer evenings I’m home alone tears streaming I think this is how you heal I need to find a better way to deal you tell me you love and treat me like you hate me abrupt contradictions inexplicable drunkenness of emotions summer evenings everyone is enjoying the beautiful day while I’m wishing for the day to end to go to sleep, and not feel, tired of this healing process the thought of you promising me love but never allowing me to access your heart left me in a tempered glass watching it all, but never feeling touching never coming close … Continue reading Summer Evenings

Display

You never wanted anything serious that’s why you always acted so damn mysterious but you fell in love with her pretty little waist you knew she was a good girl but her time you still wanted to waste you could’ve replaced her quick before you made her sick you could’ve picked someone with the same goal as you but you knew and you still sat there and watched as her feelings grew her feelings you withdrew always telling her she was beautiful while you were alone with her, on replay but behind her back made fun of her and called … Continue reading Display