I crave you like a nympho craves sex
you go deeper into my heart
I have swallowed my words
you sink harder into my mind
I ride quietly in your car
you grab my hair and pull me towards you
you stare at my eyes and lean in for a kiss
I’m choked from feelings I haven’t expressed
I crave you like a nympho craves sex
it’s hard to explain, it’s complex
I came out of a dark state
you pulled out that blade
I wasn’t afraid
Hurt inside
smiling outwardly
my anxiety takes me by surprise
I get shooked and it makes me feel cowardly
I leave my house early
to avoid having to feel awkwardly
I’m fucked up
I’m messed up
sometimes it makes it hard to keep up
it goes smooth for a few days and then I fuck up
I fall down and I force myself to get up
I go to the mirror and whisper “never give up”
never give in to your demons
they’ll leave you with lesions
but never give your Angels so much power you become powerless
where you become blinded and your world is colorless
it’s a balance
a map of guidance
we need to feed both sides
or one side will empower us
Your flattery makes me feel vain
after I stop smiling, I still feel the same pain
that’s why I sit here and enjoy this champagne
I’m getting tipsy, I feel it in my veins
sober soul, drunken pain, I’m not really sure what emotion to process through my brain
I feel an electric wave go down my spine
one more sip, there was one, now I see two lines
now I see right through your lies
it’s funny how time flies, for a long time you lied while you stared into my eyes
I should get a dummy prize because I never realized
I was so unwise, you knew that and you still hypnotized me
your vibe I had already memorized
it was too late, I was mesmerized
sipping this champagne, thinking about all that pain, what a drain
my sight is full of color but when I think about you it goes plain
Wait stop
why are you hurting me nonstop?
late at night I’ve been feeling bitter
I’m trying to quit but I keep checking your twitter
I’m looking for signs
but I only find litter
I brought it up and what I got back from you was astonishment
I kid you not this feels like a punishment
I’ve been as naive as a young infant
it fucks up my instincts
you’d promise you’d stay and you vanished
the worse part is that you left a damage
I don’t know how to manage
I’m getting hit by sadness
the air you left feels satanic
It took me a while to open up
it took me a while to find my voice
that’s why I feel so offended when people try to silence me, my mind you’ll never shut
I’m observing, I’m learning, & I’m speaking up
I’m standing up for what’s right and I’m never giving up
I’ll never again be silenced
it took me a long time to find my balance
it took me a while to repair the confidence that was once wrecked by injured souls
i’m no longer interested in secretly hurting
it’s the pain that gets you through
brave is not one who hides, brave is one who fights
I’ve been hurt many times, but getting through is what makes me grow
I took in a lot of bad energy and now I’m about to release a converted energy
I took it in negatively, consumed it, and spit it out positively
Letting go
I don’t know
What it feels like
My feelings I want to release in open mic
Some many feelings bottled up
I have a feeling
In order to let go
My silence I need to break
I need to release all my aches
I won’t flake anymore
I get my pen and my journal, and I sit by the lake
There I sit and I write about all my heartbreaks and all the snakes
I write about the times I haven’t been awake, in a dark state
All the birthday wishes and the birthday cakes
Letting go of all the memories
They’re all I know, but not ones I enjoy
Barely brought me any joy, they would always seem to destroy
Letting go
I don’t know what it feels like
It’s so unlike me to let things go
but my memories dislike me
and they keep striking me
I need to stop them from ripping me and let them go
Peace, serenity
looking out for the enemy
those who can’t agree to disagree
because to them they’re always right
if you don’t agree, they are putting up a fight
like we don’t have freedom of speech
my thoughts differ from yours
my sanity I’m trying to preserve
but sometimes I witness dark discoveries
I struggle to find beauty
I’m drowning in pain
so, I’ve created an illusion
looking for a sacred conclusion
I’m reading vibrations
not everyone wants to go to paradise
but that’s a personal choice
it’s not your choice to make
if you want to go
don’t try to convince others to go
make sure you are eligible to go
I appreciate your ancient soul
you’re so soulful
you make me feel so joyful and hopeful
two feelings I thought I would never experience
I admire whoever brought you into existence
I’m so serious about this experience
when I see you, I don’t know how to act
so I act delirious
your eyes are so mysterious
your vibe is an art of brilliance
He was never in that much pain
but she catastrophized her symptoms to make him stay
she made him think she would feel betrayed
she got tired of being slayed
she decided she would become the slayer
the roles switched and now she was the player
his time she wanted to waste
his actions she wanted to copy and paste
so he could feel
what it feels
the real tears
the feeling of not knowing how to deal
how long it takes to heal
the feeling is so unreal
it can have you missing meals
he used to call her dramatic
what a tragic
instead of making love to her, he made her panic
it was never climatic
never fantastic
never no magic
her feelings to him were always a catastrophe
and now he’s in a lonely phase
now he sits in agony
You think your microscopic lies would hurt
I think you lie because it helps you cope
but you’ve been losing hope
I once thought you were dope
but you keep tightening your own rope
all you do is sit there and mope
you act up and blame it on your horoscope
delighted? more like I feel ignited
my peace is about to catch flames
you’re making all these silly claims
I don’t even feel the same
this is what we became
played too many games
living in your dreams felt like an error
I lived in terror
