An aura of serenity touches my soul

An elegant breeze, there’s calmness tonight

The noise around me gets destroyed as I enter a calm dimension

Clearing my mind is the only way to grasp attention

It’s the only way I get to explore my expressions

There is chemistry between the calmness of my soul and I

A love so endlessly

My world can collapse but it all begins mentally

When the thoughts attack, serenity is the remedy

Times where the air feels dreadfully a shift of energy will make my mind feel heavenly

Extraordinary calmness, no tormented waves

My mind gets chaotic only when I allow it

In times of devilry I turn to clarity, it keeps the flow steadily

They say even though you hurt me

I must forgive you

I won’t be able to move on until all is forgiven

I try to erase some memories and I get hit with a wave of vivid visions, I get livid

My mind I try to calm, but it becomes stiffened, thickened with unpleasant memories

This is what you do to me because you never listened

In addition, you murdered my ambitions, I was once so driven

But you had me imprisoned

I wanted an admission in love

You wanted other women involved

This is not what I envisioned

I don’t need to ask you for permission, I’m in a messed up position

Now I’m supposed to forgive you like magic, I’m not a magician

One magic trick and it’s all forgiven

It’s not that easy

This is a lot of repairing, I’m not a technician

There is a lot of debating, I’m not a politician

I’ve removed you from life, you’re an excision

As to when I’ll forgive you, that date is unwritten

I crave you like a nympho craves sex

you go deeper into my heart

I have swallowed my words

you sink harder into my mind

I ride quietly in your car

you grab my hair and pull me towards you

you stare at my eyes and lean in for a kiss

I’m choked from feelings I haven’t expressed

I crave you like a nympho craves sex

it’s hard to explain, it’s complex

I came out of a dark state

you pulled out that blade

I wasn’t afraid

Hurt inside

smiling outwardly

my anxiety takes me by surprise

I get shooked and it makes me feel cowardly

I leave my house early

to avoid having to feel awkwardly

I’m fucked up

I’m messed up

sometimes it makes it hard to keep up

it goes smooth for a few days and then I fuck up

I fall down and I force myself to get up

I go to the mirror and whisper “never give up”

never give in to your demons

they’ll leave you with lesions

but never give your Angels so much power you become powerless

where you become blinded and your world is colorless

it’s a balance

a map of guidance

we need to feed both sides

or one side will empower us