Unopened, frozen, hoping for a token to life but still broken

She doesn’t always know what she wants but this is not what she had chosen

Wounds still open

Consuming poison in slow motion

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When they try to play with her emotions, she opposes

Can’t mess with her mind, if in her mind there’s already an explosion

Full of emotions, while she tries to stay focused

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No one listened to her when she was outspoken, now she remains unspoken

They don’t understand, but they messed up her whole motion

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Unopened, frozen, hoping for a token to life but still broken

Hoping, the doors to negativity closing, her mind opens

She starts to enjoy the moment

Staying away from everyone that’s posing

One day they give you roses, the next they’re feeding you poison

XXX

They want nothing but sex

Can’t hold conversations

He can’t even recite the ABC’s in his head

He is thinking hard on how to get me to bed

I can see right through you

You leave me on read

My energy you misread

You want to get freaky and you randomly text “xxx”

Reciting all the lies, here we go with the flex

Talking about your checks…

Like that’s supposed to have a different mental effect

I know what you’re about to say next, I know your next actions step by step

But I’m the bad one if I do the same and follow your footsteps?

Now it’s considered and overstep?

I’ve been prep

The double standard, when I join the game, they want answers, I feel the anger

Texting me “xxx”, I leave it unread, unanswered, I die of laughter

A secret romance

When they’re secretly together, they always reach climax

They want to be together but neither of them wants to take the chance

So, they stare at each other in secret and in front of others they just glance

He invites her out to dance, she accepts, they both go in a trance

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They love each other but perhaps they’re scared

Their love is different, but it isn’t rare

They are both really aware, they really care

It’s so unfair

They can’t be together, it’s all a blur

They’re madly in love, but they aren’t sure how it occurred

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A secret romance

They try to stop it and it just expands

They try to stop it because they don’t understand

They tried to stop it but their hearts had other commands

No matter how hard they try, the love won’t even collapse

They want to stop it but they don’t even know how it began

Per her mind’s request, she has to forget him

But per her heart’s request, she is not ready to let him go

Her mind is stressed

She loves him so much, she became obsessed

Even though he played too many games

Even though he cared more about her breasts

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With her mind, he messed

Her thought patterns, he arrests

He shoots her soul, even with her bulletproof vest

When he leaves her, she doesn’t understand, thoughts spiral though her mind she cannot digest

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Every time she sees him with a girl, she feels pressed

She calls him over, she begins to undress

He no longer wants her, not even as a guest

He helps her put on her dress

She confesses she is depressed

But she doesn’t comprehend that without him, her life would be blessed

The ones that go through it, barely talk about it and the ones that don’t, talk the most

Like they know the most about it

They argue with you without living through the experience

You went through it and it makes you delirious

Argue so much about it, you become oblivious

How can they argue it if they never felt the feeling in their core?

They’ve never witnessed it before?

How can they argue it if they don’t know what it’s like to be sore from that experience?

So much resilience, but not experienced

It took me a long time to break free

I was in a constant chain

It took me hard work to break from them

And you think you can come with new chains…

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Look for the right answers in your brain, and explain…

What makes you think I’m going through that pain again, voluntarily?

Help me understand, I need clarity

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One touch, one kiss, five words, and you think you can chain me, now I’m “yours”

I am mine, and to get to that, I went through a lot of therapy

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You come with new chains, I’m supposed to allow it, apparently

You’re not even a priority

You’re not even a necessity

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Listen to me carefully

Mentally, my only state is peacefully

I’m practicing that heavily

If you’re trying to block me

Make sure you’re ready mentally

I’m going full speed, carefully

Unstable but still able

Magnetic powerful vibe

Mysterious yet liberating

Animated hallucinations

Never scared of her expressions

Radiates her own mind

Taps into all of her senses

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She tries, she tries hard

But not for anyone else

She does it for herself

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Focused on her meditations

Brilliant spirit, never cruel

Sometimes frightened

But never ever stopping

Inspired by life

Ideal consciousness

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She tries, she tries hard

But not for anyone else

She does it for herself