Choked

At times I feel so violated
& I start isolating
I feel a huge weight pulling me down
& now I start debating
Am I running from it?
Or am I participating?
I give in
& now it starts escalating
& now my heartbeat starts accelerating
& I’m not really sure where my mind is headed
Is this my fate?
How often I can’t think straight
Sometimes I just want to run away
To a different state, a different world
Idk I just want to escape
Tired of sitting late at night
Waiting for some sort of light
I keep writing all this pain out
It often blinds my sight
I always invite all the events in my life to come polite
But sometimes I still feel tight, choked, joked
& I’m soaked in feelings
I need to get rid of
I reached out & no one listened
So my thoughts I imprisoned
& I hid
Covered it up all like lids
& now it’s spilling out
Eating me out
Choking me out
Grabbing me by my throat
Smoked, taking notes, reading all these quotes, diagnosed

-Poetic Glory