๐“Ÿ๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ฌ๐“ฎ, ๐“ข๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐”‚

Peace, serenity Thatโ€™s all I want, thatโ€™s all I need Taking deep breaths as a remedy Anxiety raises, there goes my mind to all sorts of offbeat places Blazing, trying to cool down, but all the bad energy is hitting me in different stages I once thought I could always feel amazing But my mind keeps tricking me into thinking itโ€™s never changing All my hard work goes to waste and once again I start training Exchanging, the bad energy with good energy until I have officially started gaining Maintaining, sustaining my thoughts in order because when I lose control, … Continue reading ๐“Ÿ๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ฌ๐“ฎ, ๐“ข๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐”‚

๐“’๐“ฑ๐“ธ๐“ด๐“ฎ๐“ญ

I feel so violatedI feel like isolating myselfI canโ€™t even begin to ventilateAll this weight pulling me downIs this my fateHow often I canโ€™t think straightMay I run away to another state Tired of sitting late at nightWaiting for some sort of lightI keep writing all this outAt times is out of spiteAt times is out of fright, out on siteIt often blinds my sightDespite all the delights Might I add I always inviteAll the events in my life to be politeBut I still feel tight, choked, jokedSoaked in feelingsI need to get rid ofTired of rubbing out my eyelids … Continue reading ๐“’๐“ฑ๐“ธ๐“ด๐“ฎ๐“ญ

๐“˜ ๐“ฆ๐“ฒ๐“ต๐“ต

It will either destroy you or turn you into a better creation Change is good, gets rid of toxic invasion It feels good feeling good in every occasion It pays off, you just have to be patient Impatience can lead you to some messed up equations Meditating to another world makes you feel so gracious Your body is here but your soul is in a better location Away from the negativity of this generation Priorities so messed up, cannot hold on to inspiration Mind so clouded, goes straight for the medication Stimulate my mind, letโ€™s have dope conversations No explanations, … Continue reading ๐“˜ ๐“ฆ๐“ฒ๐“ต๐“ต

๐“ข๐“ต๐“ธ๐”€๐“ต๐”‚ ๐“ข๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“น๐“น๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ

He comes around but he never listens He likes her but still keeps his distance He has goals but he isnโ€™t driven She tries while he focuses on other women She wants to love him But holds back because it feels like a competition Trying to please him became an addiction To love him, she needs his permission He only wants to love her under his conditions She has to stay quiet and submissive When he doesnโ€™t agree, he becomes somewhat aggressive He doesnโ€™t understand what he is missing He keeps putting her in awkward positions She tried to love … Continue reading ๐“ข๐“ต๐“ธ๐”€๐“ต๐”‚ ๐“ข๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“น๐“น๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ

๐“’๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ผ๐“ฒ๐“ผ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ ๐“‘๐“ฎ๐“ฝ๐“ป๐“ช๐”‚๐“ช๐“ต

Iโ€™m not sure if Iโ€™m good for you But Iโ€™ll always try to contain myself Contain myself from wrecking your soul Itโ€™s not that Iโ€™m foul, I forgot how to love Gave it away so much, to all the wrong souls They lacked the appreciation and the more that I lovedโ€ฆ The more painful it becameโ€ฆ I feel shameful Because they were never grateful I was always faithful, but even so our love always turned out fatal I know that Iโ€™m ableโ€ฆ Able to loveโ€ฆ But I am tired of feeling mental I know what I bring to the table … Continue reading ๐“’๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ผ๐“ฒ๐“ผ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ ๐“‘๐“ฎ๐“ฝ๐“ป๐“ช๐”‚๐“ช๐“ต

๐“ข๐”‚๐“ท๐“ฌ๐“ฑ๐“ป๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ฒ๐”ƒ๐“ฎ

Itโ€™s a daily battle My soul and my mind are on two different channels I need to constantly meditate and synchronize While releasing the cries and enjoying the high Itโ€™s a dangerous zone when my soul and thoughts untie When my thoughts do a lot of damage, my soul feels like itโ€™s about to die Fighting my own vibe to awaken my third eye Oh, I cry, I almost constantly die But I never give up, my soul is too wise Good thoughts circle under all the negativity Detoxify the electric eye, I sacrifice to align once again I thought … Continue reading ๐“ข๐”‚๐“ท๐“ฌ๐“ฑ๐“ป๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ฒ๐”ƒ๐“ฎ

๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฐ๐“ธ๐“ฎ๐“ผ ๐“ซ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐”€๐“ช๐”‚๐“ผ

I wish I knew what was going through your mind Maybe I wouldnโ€™t feel like the problem Itโ€™s not just about me, this goes both ways But I have no choice and I assume when I get no replies I tired, but I canโ€™t get through you I wanted to be there for youโ€ฆ But you process your thoughts alone and thatโ€™s fine But I couldnโ€™t be the only one always trying Continue reading ๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฐ๐“ธ๐“ฎ๐“ผ ๐“ซ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐”€๐“ช๐”‚๐“ผ

๐““๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐”€๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ญ๐“ฎ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ต

Judgmental people call you mentalIโ€™m sorry your life was so successfulNot everyone has the same luckSome people donโ€™t know theyโ€™re dancing with the devil They call themselves sentimentalWhen they do go through things, โ€œitโ€™s environmentalโ€They judge you even if your heart is gentle They never been through an experience so detrimentalThey question why you never listened to the words, this whole time I was dancing to an instrumentalIf youโ€™re going to talk about the hell I live in, make sure you first dance with the devil Continue reading ๐““๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐”€๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ญ๐“ฎ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ต

๐“˜๐“ญ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐”‚ ๐“—๐“ช๐“ผ๐“ผ๐“ต๐“ฎ

Self love Iโ€™m losing the battle Who is this person Iโ€™ve encountered An identity hassle A soul so familiar yet a stranger So distant yet so close My votes arenโ€™t always valid Because sometimes I go ghost Sometimes Iโ€™ll host my own show Sometimes Iโ€™ll hide in the shadows Continue reading ๐“˜๐“ญ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐”‚ ๐“—๐“ช๐“ผ๐“ผ๐“ต๐“ฎ

๐“”๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ช๐“ต ๐“ฆ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ด

Once again I am an emotional wreck Once again everything seems wrong Once againย  I am alone And once again, I blame myself The love I never got, the ears that never listened They eyes that only saw wrong The minds that only judged Somehow itโ€™s not entirely my fault But once again I blame myself The hugs I never got The whispers that I overheard The stares that would follow Somehow it wasnโ€™t entirely my fault But then again, I still blamed myself Could I have done better? Could I have reacted differently? Listened more? Spoke less? Done less? … Continue reading ๐“”๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ช๐“ต ๐“ฆ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ด