Transition

I panic, the energy feels satanic

It freezes up the magic

I want to gravitate mentally to a different planet

Hide in the woods in a cabin, until it’s gone, until I can manage

Until it is vanished, so much static in my mind, anxiety heightens automatic

Stuck in tragic, so much mental traffic, reliving all bad habits

I close my eyes and I breathe

I start to feel the energy growing within

I Meditate, let the bad energy disappear

Meditate on all my fears

I change my mind to change my atmosphere

I wipe my tears, as my mind clears

Love me at all times

You love me by time

You hug me and kiss me in the night

But by dawn you misbehave again

You only love me in secret

Funny how you thought you were my weakness

So, you never treated me equal

While I always gave you the same treatment

Made love to me in the night

But by dawn you want to put up a fight

Long time ago you used to excite me

Now you don’t know how to talk to me without mistreatment

Sometimes I felt so much pain It almost made me insane

I closed my eyes and prayed again and again

I prayed until the positive energy remained

From this experience, a lot of lessons I gained

You hug me and kiss me in the night

But by dawn you misbehave again

In your mind, you’ve won and succeeded

But I’m not stopping until you’re defeated

You’re different

You hold my hand and escort me to your room

Kiss my lips gently while you caress my hands

Pull the scrunchie out of my hair, now you’re running your fingers through my soft, brown hair

I was fighting it, but I gave in

Your kisses are some sort of spell

Your caresses feel like magic

You lay me on your bed and massage my feet

Make your way up and you’re now massaging my neck, I feel your gentle kisses

Slowly, you take off my clothes, I almost resist, but instead I assist

You take off your clothes and lay next to me

You stare at my eyes and you smile

Nervously I wait, but instead of making love to me…

You lean in and whisper “I love you”

Escape

In one million pieces my heart you sliced

You patched it up and told me I’ll be alright

What you never understood is that you left really deep scars

And when I needed you most, you were always so far

And alone I would go out and weep while I stared at the stars

I had to find a way to escape this unpleasant experience

Doubting your love so much was making me delirious

You began showing me your negative vibe and it was hideous

You fed me so much lies I became oblivious

Little by little my sanity you killed, it was so hard to rebuild

In love you are extremely unskilled

Your lies and dark energy overspill

The times you got angry, I got chills

I understood this wasn’t the thrill I wanted to feel

I closed my eyes and I stayed still, I let you go before I got ill

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Shelter my heart

Shelter my heart

Promise me you’ll keep it safe

For what it’s worth

It’s already been destroyed

Secrete the poison and then promise you’ll be loyal

Don’t disappoint me, I’ve already been through enough betrayal

When I’m with you, all my pain gets disabled

My vibe becomes extremely playful, kiss my lips and then we can get naked

One touch from you and I’m no longer thinking of painful memories

My energy is stable, I might be stuck in denial, but I’m never ungrateful

Shelter my heart and silence all the chaos in my mind

For a long time, these feelings I declined, I was scared you would be unkind

But you’ve done the opposite, my energy you aligned

Slowly take off our clothes and then explore each other’s masterminds

Cold Nights

Full moon on a cold night

I think of you, I’m no longer alright

It’s you again that keeps me up

It’s a silent night

I have to fight my thoughts

I don’t want to think of you tonight, I need a break

I close my eyes, I see your face and you apologize

Only if you were really here, I would be paralyzed

A touch from you would send me to paradise

Full moon on a cold night

I think of you, I’m no longer alright

You’re not here and I still feel the butterflies

You smile at me and sing me lullabies

One kiss from you, I’m satisfied

Terrified of what I’m feeling inside

I miss you only in my dreams, in disguise

You hit up my phone and I don’t reply

Silent Monsters

Creeping while I’m sleeping

Sneaking in the shadows

It traps my vibe and my thoughts become very misleading

Scheming to destroy my vibe

Almost succeeding…

I’m bleeding, hardly breathing, I wake up and start healing

It whispers in my ear, its words are a little intriguing

Hypnotized I follow, the negative vibe is leading

Weeping, I close my eyes and my breathing I deepen

I fight back and I start succeeding

Proceeding, competing, I’m searching for a valid meaning

Overreacting, hardly speaking, it slowly dies when I start believing

Is it you?

Is it you?

Are you the ghost from my dreams?

Sometimes I enjoy dreaming more than being alive

Everything is so peaceful, no one to deceive you

In real life they promise they’ll love you and then make you unconsciously hate them

Is it you?

Are you the ghost from my dreams?

I enjoy our genuine talks, the way we held hands when we walked

If this is what it feels like to feel at peace, I want to stay sleeping…

Is it you?

Are you the ghost from my dreams?

I thought this feeling was only a magical miracle in my dream

But you make me feel just like him, perhaps even better

Beautiful Design

Beautiful design

Fine like wine

When she feels down, her mind and her soul intertwine

Sometimes lonely she cries for a sign, waiting for her darkness to finally shine

Trying hard to define what they mean to her, they say they’re genuine, but that’s a lie

She tries to spread her love, but sometimes she crosses the line

They play with her mind, but she still knows she is extremely divine

Independent and genuine, she spreads the peace sign

She crosses her fingers and prays while she cries

A hit from her bong, she is on cloud nine

Thinking about the times she did it on her own, she’s hurt, but she’ll be fine

Beautiful design

Fine like wine

She sits on lotus and feels the energy go down through her spine

She is not sure which mission she was assigned

But her love she still spreads throughout humankind

She tries, she tries hard, she fails many times, but she never loses her state of mind