You made me feel blue until I grew (Explicit)

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Treat me like some random bitch

Treat me bad because you know I wont snitch

Cheating with random bitches

Should I remove all these stitches

That you left

The pain I detest

The pain that I needed to get of my chest

The pain that you thought should’ve left me impressed, blessed, expressed

But you left me feeling oppressed, depressed

In debt

I lost the bet

You left me threat

I took all that negative energy and I forget

Then I insect all the power that’s left

I don’t give a fuck if it comes from sweat

I’ll sacrifice if it means ill be set

As of yet

I haven’t felt bad

I actually haven’t had

This type of fun

Actually I never had none

With you

You made me feel blue

Thank God I grew

Out of that

Out of view

I’m done with you

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You don’t know what’s going on in my mind

Nine times out of ten you don’t seem to care

How dare me think the opposite

Eight times out of nine

You told me you were mine

It felt so divine

Seven times out of eight

You made me feel great

Never did I debate if it was really a front

Don’t deny that six times out of seven

You made me feel like we belonged in heaven

Now I feel devastated

Because five times of out of six

You said you would fix your attitude

and instead of giving gratitude

Four times out of five

We got into a fight

And three times out of four

You blamed me and didn’t take responsibility for yours

Two times out of three

You blame it again on me

One out of two

I’m done with you

Choked

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I feel so violated
I feel like isolating myself
I can’t even begin to ventilate
All this weight pulling me down
Is this my fate
How often I can’t think straight
May I run away to another state
Tired of sitting late at night
Waiting for some sort of light
I keep writing all this out
At times is out of spite
At times is out of fright, out on site
It often blinds my sight
Despite all the delights
Might I add I always invite
All the events in my life to be polite
But I still feel tight, choked, joked
Soaked in feelings
I need to get rid of
Tired of rubbing out my eyelids
Been feeling a way since a kid
God forbid I reached out
It was a bad thing I did
So I hid
Covered it up like lids
And now it’s eating me out
Choking me out
Grabbing me by my throat
I still try to make the most
I keep taking notes
Smoked, reading all these quotes, Diagnosed

Remedies for my memories (Explicit)

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These memories are fucking up my zen

I’m in desperate need of some remedies

It’s slowly killing my essence

Like I haven’t learned my lessons

Long time ago

How do I let all this go?

Have you ever felt trapped?

All wrapped up

I need to snap out of it

Fuck it, tuck it, suck it up

It’s time to fuck shit up

I’m done with all this sad shit

All these fucked up memories

They began to control all my energies

To an extremity

It was weakening me

Sickening me

Secreting me

I’ve begun to awaken

I’ve been slowly breaking

All these chains

I no longer want to feel the anger in my veins

I no longer want to feel all this pain

I ain’t no longer fucking with it

If it ain’t gains

All by myself

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One thing holding me back is fear

I’ve come very near to clear my mind

Sometimes I get left behind

Now I don’t even know how to define myself

Sometimes I confide in myself

Sometimes I decline myself

Then I remember to be kind

I promise myself to find a way

Everyone is telling me it will all be fine

Even when shit is getting out of line

I need to take care of me and mine

But sometimes its hard to align myself

I need to be at peace

But I’m sipping this wine

All by myself

They want me to be there for them

But when I need them I’m all by myself

What they choose to see (Explicit)

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We’ve all gone a little mad
Sometimes we feel super sad
Sometimes we just need someone to hold our hand
Someone who will help us expand
But sometimes people don’t understand you
And instead of trying, they ban you
And they scan you
And based on their own image of you
All of a sudden they can’t stand you
They don’t understand all the fuckery that’s been building up
All that you’ve witnessed growing up
All the adultery, all the discovery
In a summary
They never gave you a chance
They only judge on what they see
Or what they choose to see
Never do they take time to check up on you
You could’ve been a wreck
They’ll make their own subject
Won’t ever give you the chance to object
They never gave a fuck about the effects

Slowly Tipping

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I’m slowly tipping
My mind is tripping
I don’t drink & i feel like drinking
Tired of flipping out
I’m tired & there is no doubt
How could I have allowed
Myself to fallout
To you it’s all about clout
To me it’s about protection
How can you not see the connection
Your actions is a reflection of whats inside
But why must I pay?
Do you think I’m a prey?
Sometimes i’m brave
Other times I sit there and I pray
Is it the attention that you crave?
While I want someone to save me
You’re seeking attention I never gave
And now you claim you can’t behave