Between light and shadow

Between light and shadow

Sometimes I grow, sometimes I don’t know where I’m headed

Between dreams and reality

To get anxious or live carefree

I sip some black tea

Focus my mind on tree pose

Focused on my mind so I know where my qi flows

Between cons and pros

Sometimes I’m ecstatic and then I buy a black rose

Sometimes I’m conservative, other times I take off my clothes

I’m mostly awake but sometimes I doze

I’m not always balanced but I’m cautious of my dose

Grateful for my highs and awake during my lows

Check myself

I’ve been feeding my bad side lately; I need to check myself

It’s almost as if I’m being compelled, it’s not letting me excel

I’m feeling overwhelmed, it’s been causing me to rebel

The influences are coming from the past, certain flashbacks, certain triggers

Sometimes my issues are small, and I make them bigger

Things are running smooth and I make them bitter

I make up all these possibilities and it’s messing up my smooth melodies

It shrinks my capabilities, I’m eating all this negativity

Shut in a mental disability, overreacting at stupidities, such hostilities

It’s not a probability, it’s a certainty

My main responsibility is to constantly check myself

Perfect Bliss

You get close, smoothly kiss my lips, you take me to a state of bliss

When you leave, is that feeling I miss

My feelings you never dismiss, you leave, and I miss your chocolate kiss, you leave and I exit that state of bliss

Don’t leave me, please

You touch me, I get goosebumps, my skin can’t resist

Give me a French kiss, give me a soul kiss, it doesn’t matter, just give me a kiss

You want to go gentle, but I tell you no, I insist

You want to take my clothes off, I assist

I want you to love me lightly with a dark twist

Love me weakly, love me with passion, it doesn’t matter your love takes me to a state of bliss

It’s because of you my bliss exists

My Sanity

I choose my sanity over everything

I’ve been fighting hard for it every second of the day

So many seconds questioning humanity

Sometimes I’m an introvert

I sit quiet & I observe

Sometimes what I witness is so absurd

Can’t reverse the memories

I stay reserved, hidden in my own universe

Sometimes I’m very outgoing

I make friends without knowing

They say they’re my friends, but that’s hardly what they’re showing

When I get too involved my self-doubt starts growing

I can’t find meaning in what they’re saying

Their thoughts and words are far from healthy

Conversations with no meaning

Always teaching, but don’t like learning

They don’t know how to, so they’re never healing

On my own

I was feeling the vibe

I felt every word, even when you said you’d be mine

I was so close to subscribe

I’m not sure if I make sense, it’s hard to describe

A hit from my pipe

So many swipes, no one was really my type

Asking where I was from and then mentioning all the stereotypes

I’m good alone

Let it be known

Alone I’ll still grow

My energy in rotation still flows

Whether or not you hit up my phone

I’ll always be at peace in my zone, on my own

Poison

Your love was poison

It was never genuine, it was for your convenience

To feed your demons

You thought you were a genius and I would come to an agreement

You’re a dangerous tragic

A sculptor to my nightmares

I provided genuine love, you fed me poison

At one point I believed all your famous lies

The harmony was lost

The positive opportunities were gone

You made it a habit to feed me silence

You weren’t interested in my melodies

You cared more about your dominant tendencies

Your morals are corrupt

Your soul is disconnected from your body

There was always something sinister about your vibe

You wanted to make me feel insecure

With your words you tried to bribe me

Your eyes were always full of fire

Poison is all you knew, you tried to feed me poison

But you are the poison itself, you were never yourself

Ignite my darkness

You question my glance

I’m looking at you because I enjoy your presence

Moments with you are always pleasant

I applaud your behavior

You are just the perfect flavor

My sadness is big but your love is even greater

It’s in your nature to treat me right

Never want to fight

You want to cuddle in the night

You invite me out when I’m sad

Kiss me with such delight

You’ve helped me stand upright

You’re there when I’m not alright

In this darkness, you’re currently my light