Self-love, self-care I had to love it as much as I love air

My thoughts weren’t always fair

Me being happy used to be rare

Complained about everything, from my toes to my hair

I needed to take care of myself, I swear

I was getting tired of my own glare

Now I look in the mirror and I sometimes stare

It’s not something I’m afraid to share

I was always myself, but never aware

Always wanted approval elsewhere, but they were never there

It became a real nightmare I had to repair

Sometimes it scared me, other times it felt like a dare

I was hurting myself, I was being unfair

I’ve been better, it’s not hard to compare

Self-love, self-care I had to love it as much as I love air

Guilty Pleasure

So many guilty pleasures, it’s sometimes hard to measure
Sometimes a mistake other times a treasure
Call it a balance, sometimes it makes me feel lesser, other times I feel better
I can be my own aggressor, or I’ll take myself on an adventure
Altogether, it’s not as bad, but it’s not always clever
It’s an exotic feeling when I keep myself together
Other times I rebel, it raises my blood pressure, it sometimes stains me forever
Whether it’s good or bad, there is always a lesson, or a lecture
Always under pressure, to be my own professor or to live in terror
Guilty pleasure, through pain or tears, my guilty pleasures is what makes me feel like a successor

Should I go? should I stay?

I shouldn’t, but I can’t stop

An adrenaline rush, when I talk to you

I need to subtract myself; you keep coming back and it’s not helping me

Every time you tell me that you want me, I lose my common sense, I lose control, can’t think for myself

Should I leave? Should I wait? I just don’t know

To be with you or without, they both feel right

Your words may be genuine, but you just never know

Do I leave or go with the flow?

Do I leave or see if it grows?

Do I leave or see where it goes?

I just don’t know; my mind is about to blow and I think it shows

Eliminating your vibe

Intoxicating, anticipating

Another shot, in your games I’m participating

My mind you’re now manipulating

Out of breath I’m suffocating

You think you should be dominating

Take a seat, you’re insulting my freedom, I won’t let you win, you’re hallucinating

Away from you I’m relocating

You’ve been fighting, I’ve been communicating

You’ve been tempting me, I’ve been hesitating

You make a scene; my thoughts start isolating

Your red flags have been accumulating

Whatever feelings I had, you’ve been assassinating

After one night with you, I’m recuperating

Screw you, I don’t need you, your whole vibe I’m eliminating

When I’m not with you, my soul starts rejuvenating

My spirit animal

You only show yourself on full moons, or once in a blue
My spirit animal, tell me that you’ll love me even when they won’t follow through
Promise me that you’ll be there for me when they blur my view
Sometimes it gets rough and I need you
They feed me lies but when you speak, I know it’s true
When you leave me, I don’t know what to do
With you I grew, they kept me guessing, you gave me all the clues
I believe in you, I always knew
My spirit animal please promise you will love me even when I’m feeling blue
Help me heal even when I’m screwed

Lotus…then not

He is definitely a lotus

With him I feel like I won a bonus

He is helping me keep my focus

I wouldn’t want any other hostess

I’m mad I never noticed

He took me out of my psychosis mind

He released me out of my hypnosis

The love he has for me doesn’t go unnoticed

I was lost, now I have motives

If I ever felt hopeless, he reversed it

One kiss from him, my mind floated

I make him laugh, all my jokes he quoted

I swear he rid all of my diagnosis

Every time I wanted to give up, he was my motive

Then one day he became very explosive

One day his anger he unloaded

I was no longer the one he had chosen

Slowly Accommodating

Waiting, waiting for so long it becomes frustrating

Debating, generating crazy emotions, I feel them all hit me in slow motion

I’ve waited for you for so long because you’re really captivating

Still hesitating, slowly graduating to trust you, hope still circulating

Your vibe is so fascinating, never have me feeling devastated

Integrating our souls, until they become one, and no one can separate it

Isolating myself from all the negative vibe, yours gives me life, It’s very motivating

Dominating my mind to stay focus on you, you treat me right, I wouldn’t mind accommodating

You bring light to my darkness, you illuminate it

I can get lost in your eyes because they are never intoxicating

In this experience, I am participating, but I am still guiding my heart, it makes the experience more liberating