Magnifying moments
You have talent in being a showman
My glorious moments, you’ve stolen
I wanted a role, but I was never chosen
You never cared to see that my mind is golden
I was hoping you would notice
But you never provided your focus
You were never with me in the moment
You always acted like my opponent
And every time I felt like crying, you were the main component
So much pressure to do better
From people who think are above you
Always trying to give you a lecture
I have to follow their beliefs because they got it from their ancestors
It’s really a nice gesture, but I’ll get it together
I promise, I’m clever
It’s not what you say, it‘s the way you say it, and a lot of times they come out as an aggressor
Trying to make you feel lesser, because you’re not on the same speed, but we don’t have to get to the finish line together
I’m enjoying my journey, it’s a complete adventure
I appreciate your thoughts, but I am my own professor
I’m learning from others, I’m learning from myself and then I put it together
But don’t tell me I can get there as quick as you, because you’re already there, we all have different testers
I’m not sure what gave you the impression that I’m upset I’m not there
I’ll get there whenever, I know I don’t have forever, but trust me, the journey, to me, is the pleasure
I’m so dope, my mind wants to get sad, but nope
I cannot always sit around and mope
I have found better ways to cope
I was losing hope, but nope
I got up after every fall
I learned from my past but that’s not all
I no longer feel like feeling small
I broke down these freaking walls
From crawling, to walking to now flying
Every day I’m trying
They’re not always happy thoughts, sometimes I be crying
Never so much though that I feel like dying, I’m lying
But I keep praying and smiling
Supplying my mind with satisfaction and sometimes distractions
If I had to caption my life, I’ll tell you it’s under construction but I’m performing every transaction with passion
I can still smell her fragrance on your shirt
Do you have to be under surveillance?
To stop the flirt
To stop the dirt
Supreme light of promises
That you would treat me like a Goddess
That’s a modest thought
But I don’t think it’s an honest one
Your lies would be flawless if you would keep them
I was unaware I was a temp
You sold me exotic dreams
While smoking hemp
Told me no one ever loved you
I promised I was here to love you
How can I give you my trust?
When I don’t even know if it’s lust
I left and now you’re lonely
They’re all giving you sex
And running back to their ex
They’re all giving you sex
And expecting their checks
You’re giving them specs
And lost my respect
It’s cool for a while
Until you’re alone in your room
When they pay you no mind
And you’re craving my love
That I once provided
You decided
And now we’re divided
And it doesn’t even matter
Because it was always one-sided
I keep sharing all this unique energy, but they’ve become greedy and they’re not sharing
I’m giving, they’re consuming it, I get nothing in return, it’s not longer a rotation
I’m giving you life, you’re killing me
And if that’s what you want, that’s what you need to chase elsewhere
I’m done with feeling like I always need to win a race, I was never racing with y’all in the first place
Some are trying to compete with each other
I’m trying to compete with myself
And it has been my biggest challenge
I know I have talent, but when I am not balanced, I am severely damaged
To surround myself with people and give them my trust after having my trust broken so many times
After hearing so many lies, swallowing some many BS lines
Or do I stick to myself because I don’t want to be involved in the noise
It’s a tough choice, sometimes they are the enemy and other times I am a bigger enemy to myself, possibly the worst
I was always worried about them, but now I am putting myself first
Say what you want, my energy is never forced
Sometimes I build this whole fantasy, because it makes me feel closer to sanity
Their actions shouldn’t influence me
I am my worst enemy, I’m also my own damn remedy
Helplessly or heavenly
Someday I’ll get it, I’m fighting myself endlessly
And for a moment I thought you were giving me a break
But once again you’ve caused me a heartbreak
You are the reason for my heartaches
You’re the cause for my mental outbreaks
Running from you felt like I was running from an earthquake
I thought we were done with the nightmare and finally awake
But you were causing all these mental outbreaks
Your heart was fake, the aches were real
I never had a chance, I couldn’t beat the king snake
I’ll rise & I’ll shine
Vibe with me or vibe out
But proceed fearless, without doubts
If the fear consumes you, it will put you out
Walking into positivity, negativity is not allowed
If you feel it, don’t let it gain control
If it gains complete control, it will devour your soul
And no one will know because your story will be untold
Step out of the shadows, and watch the light unfold
Sometimes I consume it, but it’s never an overdose
Sometimes alone, but never controlled
