I want to trust you but it hurts
My heart wants to forget but my mind is alert
I want this to work, I’m tired of the lurks
Sometimes we can both be big jerks
I want genuine smiles instead of the smirks
How did it go from better to worse?
Like we fell into a curse
How do you reverse?
The damage, the disadvantage
How do you manage?
When you’ve been trained to think like a savage
On survival mode
An explosion waiting to load
When all I wanted was a different road
I just wanted to be loved
But all that’s left is traumatizing thoughts flowing through my blood like a flood