He hurt me and got no reaction from me
He asked me why I turned so cold
He asks me if I do not feel pain
He asks me why I do not cry
I tell him I have been doing it for way too long
I have been crying in my sleep for way too long
I have been processing pain in my brain for way too long
Did it so much until I felt numb
Did it so much until I finally let go
Did it for so long I no longer feel anything at all
I cried, I was hurt, I was tired, I felt too much
So many times, I got high so I would not feel anything at all
Eventually the numbness grew on its own
I am not cold hearted, I was once so wholehearted
And deep down all the emotions are still there
But I dwelled on them so much…
So much it literally made me naturally numb
The feelings were finally gone
