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He hurt me and got no reaction from me

He asked me why I turned so cold

He asks me if I do not feel pain

He asks me why I do not cry

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I tell him I have been doing it for way too long

I have been crying in my sleep for way too long

I have been processing pain in my brain for way too long

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Did it so much until I felt numb

Did it so much until I finally let go

Did it for so long I no longer feel anything at all

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I cried, I was hurt, I was tired, I felt too much

So many times, I got high so I would not feel anything at all

Eventually the numbness grew on its own

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I am not cold hearted, I was once so wholehearted

And deep down all the emotions are still there

But I dwelled on them so much…

So much it literally made me naturally numb

The feelings were finally gone