PTSD

One memory of you and I get triggered

My thoughts are once again injured

Just when I thought I had it figured out

Just when at last I felt like a winner

One picture of you and I bleed inwards

Once again I am a beginner

Starting the healing process over and over again

All this time, did I just pretend to forget?

My pain extends…

My healing descends…

I never wanted revenge, I just wanted to move on and forget

I’m tired of my mind replaying the traumatic events

The nightmares are intense

I’m not completely sure how I’ll finally repair

But I’ll keep revisiting the events in my head by the sunset

Until I finally, finally forget all of this pain

Until I can think of you and finally forget