I appreciate my mental state

Even though I don’t always think straight

Sometimes I want a mate…

But it comes with too much weight

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I appreciate most of my traits

Sometimes I feel sad, but I mostly feel great

I make many mistakes and sometimes I close my own gates

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Any pain that I hate, I create

So many obstacles, it makes me late

When I’m really down, I hibernate

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I appreciate my motivation

Going against today’s generation

They hesitate, I elevate

My discipline grows at an alarming rate

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I love when they underestimate

They humiliate and barely communicate

My vibes with theirs I will never integrate

So I teach myself how to be my own soulmate

Her vibe is so exquisite

He knows that, that’s why he always goes to visit

He tries to stay at a distance

But he can’t resist it

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His mind knows she’s a dangerous woman

But he still follows his intuition

Her soul is limited edition

He also knows he has a lot of competition

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Sweet actions he tries to show her on repetition

Sometimes it feels like a weird transition

Sometimes he puts himself in awkward positions

Fighting her almost feels like an addiction

Loving her is a mission, but he won’t stop until her soul glistens

Breaking free

I had a very big fee

When you’re tied down, you can’t really live carefree

The sun sets and I sip my green tea

I close my eyes and I breathe

I inhale and I meditate

It’s the only way I can think straight

I’m carrying unnecessary weight

My mind has been in better states

This feels different, I’m not fond of the taste

If I don’t center myself, the demons grow at alarming rates

My energy I must consistently update and translate

The bad energy is trapped, checkmate

Holding tight to my integrity

Fighting hard for serenity

They tell me I need therapy

I am my own remedy

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So many painful memories

Sometimes it makes me forget my identity

Stuck in a hypnotic melody

Until mentally, I am my own enemy

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At war with my energy

Fighting the devil for clarity

Winning is a necessity

Even if I do it while drunk on Hennessy

My messages are still unread

It’s surreal, was it even real?

So many thoughts unsaid

I kept them in because I didn’t feel safe

You started getting distanced and I wasn’t about to chase

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We’ve had better days, but you’ve never left my messages unread

I’m not sure who you became

This isn’t who you once portrayed

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I tried to love you and got played

You said you’d love me and gave me a different display

So many promises made, that “forever you’d be my aid”

I’m not throwing shade

But it’s been time for an upgrade

Imperfections flowing heavily into my brain

The anxiety becomes second nature

Trying to defeat the social anxiety

It’s getting hard to defeat

When you can no longer tell fake from reality

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Many times, I’ve reached my glory

But I also have plenty of bad stories

I think about my shortcomings, but I’m ready for whatever else is coming

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I’ve been tolerating my own monsters

And they keep showing up as impostors

I ask them questions, and then pay attention to all their responses

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Not sure how they have time to lie to you

When they still haven’t fought their own demons

Imperfections flowing heavily into my brain

I want to come out of it, but sometimes they give me a reason to stay

Last chance, to tell me how you really feel

I don’t need a story, be straight up, give me a brief summary

I’m getting different impressions, I’m not sure if you’re shy

You’re making it difficult, the chances of me getting frustrated are high

You’re avoiding eye contact, can’t even get a fleeting peek of your beautiful eyes

In a blink of an eye, you take a glance at me and instead of saying the truth, you lie!

Trying hard while purifying his soul
He always had a hard time identifying himself
His repulsive actions made it hard to be loved
And in the back of his mind, he still didn’t understand why

So many times lonely he cried
Thinking how hard he has tried
His pain and his vibe collide
He doesn’t like what he feels, so he just hides

He is the main source for his suffering
All those times he promised to love, those moments are still buffering
His lies are slowly uncovering
He tries to scream for help, but all you hear is stuttering

He looks in the mirror and gets scared by his reflection
He is staring at his eyes while he fights the evil possession
He thinks he has learned all his lessons
But the problem is he never had good intentions

I never thought I would say this, but I miss your touch

I should be upset, but I won’t hold a grudge

You’re a bad decision, but I don’t mind being judged

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I miss your smell

As soon as I would see you, I would fall under a spell

Our vibes meshed so well

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I miss your taste

The way you would get close and hold my waist

Your breath on my breath, face to face

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I never thought I would say this, but I miss your voice

I left you because you were chaotic, made too much noise

But now I’m not sure if I made the right choice