Side Effects

Regardless of how they make me feel, I must feel comfortable in my own skin My patience is running out thin My whole life theme is a sad song while someone plays the violin They’re acting very demonic, while I’m trying to keep my sins clean I’m not stopping, I’m fighting until I win I feel the ecstasy feeling growing within I’ll drink some gin to get this grin off my face … Once I sober up, I’m on phase two I hide my face too I need to escape this tragic place I wonder what it’s like to live … Continue reading Side Effects

Impressed

I confess, I’m impressed It’s not the best, but it’s been better than the rest I was stressed, with you I feel expressed I suggest, you invest, we put it to the test It’s not a contest, no rush, no matter how long you take, I won’t neglect You’re trying, going against all the mess they left All the hard work you put in, I’ll never forget I suspect you’re genuine, I respect You’re so sweet, this feels correct I can take you to different events Everyone is nice at first, I’m not sure what to except I’ll take my … Continue reading Impressed

Last Call

Last call to love me Last call to love me like you did last fall When everything felt real, when I never second guessed our love … Last call for you to tell me what you really want I’m tired of feeling small, I’m putting up a wall It wasn’t this way before … Last call to treat me right All the old memories from my thought patterns I’ve uninstalled Can’t keep playing them in my mind while you’re still playing games … Last chance to tell me you were mine Do you recall when you’d stare at me and … Continue reading Last Call

7 Days

You love me on Monday Tell me you miss me on Tuesday On Wednesday you call me, we speak for hours on the phone, I don’t feel alone But by Thursday you start to get distanced On Friday you rarely text me, were you lying when you said you missed me? By Saturday you’ve gone completely MIA Hit me up again on Sunday when you’ve settled in your bed, tell me you’ve been thinking about me… … On Monday I believe you On Tuesday I tell you that I also miss you On Wednesday I’m glad we spoke on the … Continue reading 7 Days

Very Ironic

I’m weighing my options Literally fighting myself every day to remove all that is toxic It must be removed before it becomes chronic I’ve been hypnotized by darkness Trust me, if it completely consumes you, you become heartless … I’m weighing my options I don’t want to feel like the rest, I need to feel a bit exotic It keeps me alive, in the darkness I’m an alcoholic, in the light I research different topics Psychotic before I’m ever demonic … I’m weighing my options because I’m never losing my logic Sometimes chaotic, sometimes erotic but never ever obnoxious I … Continue reading Very Ironic

Triggered pain

I hear sirens at distance My mind becomes nonexistence I grab my first cup of coffee… I take my first sip, my mind spins, my thoughts get foggy … All because I think of you, I hear the sirens and I get triggered I remember all the pain you delivered, the way my thoughts you would injure My passion for you died, you were the killer … Yet you always called me a sinner Because I didn’t allow you to make me feel like a loser You thought I would never leave because I loved you But believe me, the … Continue reading Triggered pain

Tiptoe through life

Tiptoe my way through life, tiptoe my way through it all So many times I tried to just go with the flow, so many times I tried to take it slow, some days I was steady and other days I would fall  Alone I waited for someone to at least say “hello”, but the lonelier I was, the easier it was to grow Nobody to shut off my glow, people don’t stick for a long time, I guess when you know, you know I always wanted everyone to be on top, while they wished I stayed below Over and over, … Continue reading Tiptoe through life

Love me until midnight

Love me until midnight Ignite me until then Kiss me under the moonlight With you I don’t feel afraid … I’m giving in without a fight We don’t have much time left But this moment feels so right Your vibe inspires me to write And if I’m being honest, my heart you excite … Love me until midnight You don’t have to be all the way polite I’m loving what’s in front of my sight You hold my waist pretty tight The dark I no longer fright … My lips you kiss and bite You’re feeding my vibe, you’re feeding … Continue reading Love me until midnight

Lachrymose

Lachrymose, I’m supposed to be going with the flow You hand me over a black rose Then you put on a show … Everyone believes you, but I know how it goes In secret you hate me, in the light when they’re watching, you want to propose In secret you’re ripping my clothes, in the light you want to pose, you’re about to get exposed … Lachrymose, You want to show them you love me, kiss me from my head to my toes, but your secrets I’m about to disclose My feelings for you will no longer grow … This … Continue reading Lachrymose