Grounded


The bomb exploded
My mind became super overloaded
Bad thoughts overcrowded
I know I should’ve unloaded
My soul felt broken
I had two options and that’s the one I had chosen
My aura was stolen by darkness
When nobody listens, I turn the words into poems
If I don’t release, they’ll float, now I’m searching for positive quotes
I need a different motive; my soul is trapped, but my mind is wide open
I held on to that negativity, allowed it space in my mind
Many times, I thought I would have roses by my grave
But I never gave in, the waves hit hard but I’m grounded
Dark spaces feel good when I’m comfortable, but they’re not enough
I know where I have landed, stranded for so long, I know my way around it
Floated the entire time, so lost and groundless
I need to feel my feet planted, I’m changing all my surroundings

Show me both sides

You’re only showing me your good side and that scares me
People would be content but I need to see what you look like when you explode


When the shadows consume you and you’re out of air, will you fight it? Or will you take it out on me?


Show me all of you, your true self, I want the light, I want the darkness, I want to love you in both, I don’t want just half of you


What are you like when your light is temporary burn out? When you need time to find it, will you stay in darkness? Will you bring me in it? I need to know

I got this

You thought it was okay to constantly hurt me because you thought I would never leave
I learned to love myself and then I dipped
You thought I had no backup but I was equipped


My heart you tried to rip, you were nice to me and then you flipped
You only loved me when I striped
So many lonely nights I suffered while I sipped
I still loved you because the bad memories of you I always skipped
I wrote you a different script


My messages were always clear but yours were always encrypted
My whole system you shifted
I thought I needed you to stay lifted
But I got this alone, I’m gifted

Do you


Do you know how many times I’ve tried to measure your words, measure your vibe to make sure they were authentic?

Do you know how hard it was to love you? I was always under pressure, the guilt kicked in from both sides

Do you know how hard it was to sometimes please you? I always pleased you, but you always wanted more pleasure

Do you know how many times I’ve tried to keep us together? Always catered to you, even when you didn’t deserve it

Do you know how many times you promised you would love me forever?
Each time you kissed me, I felt it lesser and lesser

Do you know that all this time I tried to keep us together, my vibe was in terror, I was missing out on myself, on my own treasure

Discombobulate

Discombobulate my thoughts so I can overwrite them
It’s better to do it late than never even starting
I think it’s working
I feel the old thoughts departing
Working hard, staying awake requires a lot but the end is rewarding
The tension sometimes grows at an alarming rate
But it’s always up to me to make myself feel great

Incarcerated


Been through so much I thought I was only destined to fail
I was stuck for so long because I didn’t debate it
My soul was waiting for instructions but my mind was chaotic
I was trying to set myself free but I was in a hypnotic state
 
Sometimes it was so toxic it almost felt demonic
Sometimes it hurt for so long, I thought it was chronic
So much pain, at times I laughed, it felt like a comic
I tried to wrap my head around it, but I couldn’t find the logic
I tried to bring it attention, but my thoughts would change the topic
 
Happiness was almost forgotten
My thoughts turned somewhat robotic
Was it psychotic? I miss those thoughts that were once exotic
Incarcerated while I waited to be set free
Incarcerated while I hated my thoughts
Suffering while I’m trying to connect the dots
I’m taking the shots, I’m on a mission to set myself free

Tonight

Tonight, kill me with passion
Tonight, I’ll let you mute my speech
Tonight, there is no doubting, there’s only strictly laughter
Go one night without neglecting my presence
Go one night without the uncleanliness of your true self
Tonight, pretend that you love me
Charm my soul tonight, even it’s just a front
Calm my mind tonight, even if it’s just with a ton of lies
Tonight, just for tonight, tell me you love me
I need a mental break
Just for one night, I need to feel alive