Poetry & Self-Awareness

Do you know how many times I’ve tried to measure your words, measure your vibe to make sure they were authentic?

Do you know how hard it was to love you? I was always under pressure, the guilt kicked in from both sides

Do you know how hard it was to sometimes please you? I always pleased you, but you always wanted more pleasure

Do you know how many times I’ve tried to keep us together? Always catered to you, even when you didn’t deserve it

Do you know how many times you promised you would love me forever?
Each time you kissed me, I felt it lesser and lesser

Do you know that all this time I tried to keep us together, my vibe was in terror, I was missing out on myself, on my own treasure