I’m doing it

I don’t know how I’m doing it, but I’m doing it
Every time I want to stop, my head drops
I get stuck in a mental box, my thoughts get blocked
Trying to open new doors & everything is locked
 
I don’t know how I’m doing it, but I’m doing it
Sometimes I feel paralyzed, in those moments all I can do is fantasize
My voice is dead, I can’t vocalize
I’m going to lose if I don’t prioritize
 
I don’t know how I’m doing it, but I’m doing it
My thoughts I need to organize then summarize
I’m hypnotized, so mesmerized I’m horrified
 
I don’t know how I’m doing it, but I’m doing it
Stopping is never an option
My words are so silent, my photos don’t even have captions
The negative vibe is up for auction
Proceeding with caution, It’s time to take action

Too much of you

Too much of you and I become excessive
Too expressive
It’s quiet impressive, never have me second guessing
Straight to the point, never disappoints
Moments with you are never upsetting
They’re quiet the blessings, sometimes I absorb them as lessons
You listen, no yelling
I want to stop this but I’m letting it flow
I’m getting there, but I’m getting there slow
There’s no cons with you, only pros
With you I want to grow, together we can glow
Although, sometimes I’m not sure
But then I feel like you’re my cure
It’s just so pure
Our minds are still quiet immature, but our love is so mature

Clouded Vision

Worthy moments

Lasting an eternity

Stroked of expressions because you don’t fully express yourself

Moments with you are strong moments

Tempered concentration on your deep, beautiful eyes

They tell me a lot and tell me nothing at the same time

I can read you like a book, but my past experiences clouds those pages

I see your imperfections clear

But when my vision is unclear, they seem to be at distance

Sometimes your intentions are blurry

And other times they are super specific

You’re hitting me with subliminal messages

I’m good at reading but I guess I’ve crossed a limit

I believe you yet I’m always thinking suspiciously

I study all your strategies

I want it to be a reality

But in my head, it’s all tragedies

I think I broke him

Manipulating people’s minds, only saying his side of the story
He hurt me, I fell, got up & brushed it off
But when the tables turned, and it was my turn
I think I broke him
He is now choked, corrupted
Now ask him if he likes how it feels?
Tell him to show you his tears so that you know it is real
 
I think I broke him
In tears he is now soaked
He is missing his Glory, I’m sorry
Not really, ideally I also wanted an apology
But you acted up and you blamed astrology, psychology
You think you can psychologically mess me up, but I broke you
 
You hurt me for years and it only made me stronger
I hurt you one time and you crumbled
What was that that you mumbled?
The love was never humble because you only made me stumble
All you did was bring me trouble
But when the pain I caused you hurt you double, you now look at me all puzzled

On Repeat

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Come here and take a seat

Let me greet you, it was nice to meet you

Some days you hurt me really badly and I couldn’t eat

I would get sad at the memories of you massaging my feet

But I also think about the days I needed you and you left me alone to hit the streets

Sometimes you were sweet, but they weren’t always nice treats

Sometimes it felt like you were trying to compete

Sometimes it seemed like you didn’t care and you weren’t discreet

My mind took a retreat

Can you take the heat?

Because I’m telling you on repeat

That I don’t need you to feel complete

New Beginning

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Have you ever felt like you needed to shout?
You open your mouth, and nothing comes out?
But tears start to flow, when you’re trying to hide them, they run really slow
You hold in so much emotion, one day you explode, you’re on a different mode
And you think it’s random, it came out of nowhere, it’s a heavy load
Tears still running in slow motion plus the bottled-up emotions
That were left unsaid, the times you wanted to speak, but you got shut down
The times you wanted to cry, but you were alone
No one to give you a hug, no one to miss
What do you do when you need a genuine kiss?
A simple touch, someone sane, someone to help you through the pain
The bottled-up emotions eating away your personality
Stuck in a certain mentality, defining morality
Create a new beginning, create your own reality

Determined Liberation

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Me continuously loving you, that’s determination

Me not walking out of the situation, that was me taking you into consideration

I was our only foundation; you were too busy focused on temptation

I was trying to be your motivation, you were more focused on domination

I was hoping for admiration, you were hoping for a resignation

I tried to have communication, you had nothing but aggravations

Me continuously loving you, that’s determination

I tried to have conversations, you wanted to be in isolation

When I wanted to leave, you would get upset and it would cause a hesitation

It was holding me back from elevation

We weren’t meeting each other’s expectations, we had different destinations

I no longer wanted to feel a suffocation, it was such a liberation