I keep sharing all this unique energy, but they’ve become greedy and they’re not sharing
I’m giving, they’re consuming it, I get nothing in return, it’s not longer a rotation
I’m giving you life, you’re killing me
And if that’s what you want, that’s what you need to chase elsewhere
I’m done with feeling like I always need to win a race, I was never racing with y’all in the first place
Some are trying to compete with each other
I’m trying to compete with myself
And it has been my biggest challenge
I know I have talent, but when I am not balanced, I am severely damaged
To surround myself with people and give them my trust after having my trust broken so many times
After hearing so many lies, swallowing some many BS lines
Or do I stick to myself because I don’t want to be involved in the noise
It’s a tough choice, sometimes they are the enemy and other times I am a bigger enemy to myself, possibly the worst
I was always worried about them, but now I am putting myself first
Say what you want, my energy is never forced
Sometimes I build this whole fantasy, because it makes me feel closer to sanity
Their actions shouldn’t influence me
I am my worst enemy, I’m also my own damn remedy
Helplessly or heavenly
Someday I’ll get it, I’m fighting myself endlessly