Day: October 1, 2019

Endlessly

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I keep sharing all this unique energy, but they’ve become greedy and they’re not sharing

I’m giving, they’re consuming it, I get nothing in return, it’s not longer a rotation

I’m giving you life, you’re killing me

And if that’s what you want, that’s what you need to chase elsewhere

I’m done with feeling like I always need to win a race, I was never racing with y’all in the first place

Some are trying to compete with each other

I’m trying to compete with myself

And it has been my biggest challenge

I know I have talent, but when I am not balanced, I am severely damaged

To surround myself with people and give them my trust after having my trust broken so many times 

After hearing so many lies, swallowing some many BS lines

Or do I stick to myself because I don’t want to be involved in the noise

It’s a tough choice, sometimes they are the enemy and other times I am a bigger enemy to myself, possibly the worst

I was always worried about them, but now I am putting myself first

Say what you want, my energy is never forced

Sometimes I build this whole fantasy, because it makes me feel closer to sanity

Their actions shouldn’t influence me

I am my worst enemy, I’m also my own damn remedy

Helplessly or heavenly

Someday I’ll get it, I’m fighting myself endlessly