Unbearable pain
Enormous reproach
Negative movements approached
I’m trying to maintain
I’m processing all the chaos in my brain
Counting the loses and the gains
Do I keep going or do I give up?
I keep climbing and falling
Sometimes the air is so toxic I can hardly breathe, other times it’s so calming
Tell me you love me, but you fail to please me
I just wanted you to release me
Sometimes I want to take action, but my mind disagrees
It makes a pact with my body and it doesn’t move
I want to be better, but my mind doesn’t approve
And that’s when the battle begins
It’s fighting for comfort
It’s fighting for what it already knows
It wants to hold on to what it’s used to
But I’m trying to move out that comfort zone
I want change
I’m fighting for overall success
I get my mind high and it gets distracted
I go into space and my thoughts surprise me
I approach it timidly and I reached an epiphany