And for a moment I thought you were giving me a break
But once again you’ve caused me a heartbreak
You are the reason for my heartaches
You’re the cause for my mental outbreaks
Running from you felt like I was running from an earthquake
I thought we were done with the nightmare and finally awake
But you were causing all these mental outbreaks
Your heart was fake, the aches were real
I never had a chance, I couldn’t beat the king snake

I’ll rise & I’ll shine

Vibe with me or vibe out

But proceed fearless, without doubts

If the fear consumes you, it will put you out

Walking into positivity, negativity is not allowed

If you feel it, don’t let it gain control

If it gains complete control, it will devour your soul

And no one will know because your story will be untold

Step out of the shadows, and watch the light unfold

Sometimes I consume it, but it’s never an overdose 

Sometimes alone, but never controlled

You called my phone

Tell me you need some time

You are working full-time

Your only free time is lunch time

And I sit there sipping my wine

Laughing at your pathetic excuse

You must think I’m just as confused

As the chick I saw you last night with

I’m sorry, did you not know that I knew? 

Your boy smith blew up my phone with pics

Then proceeded to ask me for flicks 

Texting me “forget him, he is with another chick”

I call your phone, she picks up

And you click

Tell me again how you don’t have time

Tell me again why you said straight up lies

You’re not hurting me

You’re annoying me

How you can’t be straight up

How you can’t grow some balls

To your threats I am immune

We’re in tune in the mornings and it decreases by the afternoon

If you want to leave, believe me, I won’t stop you, you’ve deceived me too many times

Too many times you’ve crossed the line

Too many times your vibe tried to give me signs

If you want to stay, you can’t only love me on blue moons, when you aren’t feeling gloom 

To Whom It May Concern, because I’m not sure which of your personalities I am conversing with 

One minute you are your true self and the next you have on a costume 

Too much of my energy you’ve consumed

So this I won’t resume 

You can assume whatever you want

I’ll process my loneliness in my room, away from you

I don’t drink, but tonight I’m drinking tequila

Light up, my reasoning feels the sativa

For a few moments my mind feels the anesthesia

I dove deep and arose a swirl of emotions

My mind was going away and I was trying to retrieve it

I almost lost myself because of the way that I perceived it

You will get hit by two sides but it’s the way you receive it

It’s conceived in the mind but you have to believe it

I keep checking the days in my calendar
Plotting if any of these days I’m breaking my silence
Lately I’ve been so unbalanced
I completely shifted from my persona, it was almost as if I was in a coma
I’m going to need to reinforce a counterbalance
I lose myself, I forget who I am, and then I check my attendance
I check the days in my calendar
I remind myself I’m my own guidance
I’m driven by my impatience
I succeed through my dedication

And the world Spins 

As my thoughts shrink

I lose my cool

I ignore the process because I’m too focused on the results

I overthink the results and I don’t enjoy the process

I usually have it together

But I won’t deny that some days I am chaos

My biggest enemy is myself

Some days I’m extra hard on myself

But most days I excel all by myself

I mess up, I’m not perfect, wrecked, sometimes in conflict

But as long as I stay balanced

I’m exchanging bad habits with good habits

As long as I also keep it together

The days that I’m not that unfit

I guess I’m also still the shit

Your love to me is foreign, but I wouldn’t mind exploring

My words are silenced, my spirit is roaring

Your love is daring, but I wouldn’t mind absorbing

Sometimes you’re too quiet, should I enjoy it? Or is that a warning?

I’m up for the challenge

Your vibe carries so much talent, it makes my vibe balanced

If it comes with damage, I’ll manage

It lights up my darkness and fixes the damage

I’m taking advantage, in a good way

I appreciate it every single day

Bad energy interferes, bringing up certain fears

But you remove them before they become tears

The space surrounding me is not clear, but when I touch you, all of it just disappears