Sick Coping Mechanism

Sick coping mechanisms Moping, because I sometimes can’t properly cope I’m broken, but I’m also glowing Soaking in tears but zoning in peace Smoking my thoughts then throwing tantrums Moaning, choking, floating So many sick coping mechanisms But it’s better than exploding I’m loading my positivity I’m voting and hoping that this time it stays My tears are provoking me to stay in darkness But I start smiling even if I’m just posing When I stop joking, I’ll start growing Continue reading Sick Coping Mechanism

Reflection before Infection

My mind is brightened And then it gets darkened by an invasion All these random thoughts came without an invitation, they called themselves depression They begin to move my energy in a different direction Completely ignoring my suggestions Then it begins to enjoy the rejections, all the aggression I start obsessing on my imperfections Completely ignoring my precious connection to my state of mind to Heaven What once was special it’s now a deception My mind is in a deep detention concentration It’s a challenge to hunt for the corrections It takes a huge amount of attention on reflection You … Continue reading Reflection before Infection

Not yet forgiven

They say even though you hurt me I must forgive you I won’t be able to move on until all is forgiven I try to erase some memories and I get hit with a wave of vivid visions, I get livid My mind I try to calm, but it becomes stiffened, thickened with unpleasant memories This is what you do to me because you never listened In addition, you murdered my ambitions, I was once so driven But you had me imprisoned I wanted an admission in love You wanted other women involved This is not what I envisioned I … Continue reading Not yet forgiven

Bittersweet Moments

Bittersweet moments Sweet moaning Feelings growing Never playing games, never cheat The way you treat me, it’s so sweet The proof is very concrete Bitter sweet moments The moment is flowing We’ve spoken, we’re zoning Smoking, focused Was tired of feeling broken, stolen Hoping, your sweet moments never go unnoticed Bittersweet moments A poet, outspoken Your sweet moments in my mind are frozen Open, rolling, hoping this an enjoyment Continue reading Bittersweet Moments

My Own Nightmare

Last night I had a nightmare Forbidden memories pressed me Poisoning reality Bringing up experiences I have erased I was trying to wake up But I was in a mental lock up I kept reliving my anxieties, Making myself prisoner Poor mind, Magnetic negative waves Thoughts of horror The only sense I felt was fear I prayed the end wasn’t near Looking for a sweeter proposal A drunken voice called my name A shade of dark mimicked my actions I was captured and I was looking for my savior I was punished and not by the creator I thought this … Continue reading My Own Nightmare

Subliminal Messages

You’re no longer putting in the effort It’s not the same anymore, it was better You say you still love me but show up with all your subliminal messages You say we’re connecting spiritually and mentally, we both know this is only physical You look at me and smile but the vibes you’re sending out almost feel cynical It’s subliminal but not invisible It’s almost hypocritical You say one thing, you do the opposite, so typical You say you still love me but hit me with subliminal messages Paint me an illusion and it’s supposed to be impressive You sit … Continue reading Subliminal Messages

Authentic Epidemic

Pathogenic vibe, you’re like a disease So much pain you carved in my heart I patched it up, but I sometimes feel the pain You tried to eat me internal, hurt me and tell me it was all in my head I knew the problem wasn’t me, it was energetic I was always skeptic of your eccentric personality, maybe it’s genetic Unfortunately, your energy is magnetic It’s unfortunate because it’s domestic You were never authentic You insulted my academic because you felt pathetic, synthetic You thought you were majestic You thought you could shut me, but I am poetic I … Continue reading Authentic Epidemic

Horns & Halo

I have both Horns and Halo But they completely ignore the Halo I don’t feel like explaining, they’ll judge anyway My soul is mellow but according to their assumptions I’m a volcano They say they know me, I’m not sure how I stay low, I’ve had my glow, but why do they need to know? Whatever they think I am, I’m pretty sure I’m the opposite But I won’t argue it nor let it affect me While they’re acting suspiciously, I am reading reality Making sure I’m always genuine in soul and I’m increasing my mentality They’ll keep making their … Continue reading Horns & Halo

Different Bridge Zones

You left me in a love bankruptcy I’m left to cross the bridge alone I thought you were the perfect fit And then you switched, you began to twitch I thought this was real but you were just a glitch You loved me in silence, yelled in high pitch I guess I’m left to cross the bridge alone My mind you’ve blown, you set an unknown tone You whispered you loved me but it was never shown We were in the same place but never in the same zone Continue reading Different Bridge Zones

Rotating Backwards

I’ve been trying to move ahead But my vibe was rotating backwards I was trying to be the master But my thoughts were the attackers They held on to negativity like wrappers It soon became a hazard I need to move ahead, not backwards I need to be my own master, and not a slacker There are a few inward factors that controlled my mind like a hacker Away from all the disasters, remaining upwards I’m moving ahead, creating new chapters Continue reading Rotating Backwards